I received an email from a reader recently calling me to account over why I reply to so few of the messages, comments and emails I receive. He bought up the point that since so many people take the time to write such beautiful, thoughtful and sincere messages, that I should return the love and take the time to acknowledge each one.
I really appreciate that he bought this up, as it had been weighing on my conscience and I did wonder if this irritated the people that had in fact taken that time to write to me, and his email confirmed that it had irritated him at least, so it may very well be bothersome for others, so this is my apology.
It’s true that every day I get so many beautiful emails and thoughtful messages and comments through to the site and to every person who has ever written I want you to know something: The first thing I do every single morning is pour a cup of coffee, sit in my living room with the sun rising behind me and read those messages. Every. Single. One of them.
It is the best part of my day.
While the house is still cold and quiet, I sit right here where I am sitting now and I read through every word of every note and this means that my day begins with so much encouragement and words of support and love and as I have said before, I feel that this is possibly the best part about being a writer.
Some messages make me laugh out loud, and I have woken my children up earlier than I should have many times because of this. Others make me cry, either because you have written something that has so touched my heart, or because you have shared something with me that has broken it.
But regardless of how your messages move me, the fact is, they move me.
I wrote in my post ‘Torn’ about how I wished for more hours in the day because I always seemed to run out of time, and though I try to reply to as many messages as I can before my children come running out of their bedroom early in the morning wanting cornflakes and cartoons, I am always so behind.
I am sorry for this, because I don’t want to come across as being ungrateful, not ever, because not only has reading the correspondence from my readers been encouraging, it has actually turned this whole journey into so much more for me than just ‘being single’ for one thousand days, it has caused me to really believe that one day, I will find peace, I will achieve that ‘banging body, I will write that book, I will find true love. You guys just give me so much hope.
And yet, despite my efforts in fitting in reply’s where I can, I am currently 900 emails behind and I get several hundred per week. Please read ‘Torn’ and then tell me where I could possibly find the time to reply to that level of mail with any kind of sincerity.
So this is my apology, and also my statement of deep, genuine appreciation, which I hope can blanket those messages that I will never be able to respond to. Thank you. Thank you so much.
I write for people like you.
I swear I am not a jerk, I am just so darn short on time….Please keep writing and know that one of these mornings it will be your message that makes me smile, or laugh out loud or cry.
Thank you for your ongoing love and support. This experience has changed my life.
All my love,